aka the Candida blog
If you are not already aware, Tracy Lorensen can do anything. Seriously.
She is the kind of person who will say ‘yes’ to anything and then excel at it. She is strong, disciplined and highly responsible.
In many ways, Tracy Lorensen is the exact opposite of Samara Marie.
I mean we have our similarities…don’t get me wrong. Youtube videos, small nicknacks and pretty things in general have bound our two [very] different personalities into an eclectic friendship that has shaped me for life.
That being said… “If Tracy Lorensen can do it, I can too” is not a motto I mold my life around. Like I said in a previous blog (with a similar title), Tracy is made up of the combined essence of Aquaman, Thor and the Amazing Flash. You could probably add Wonder Woman in there for good measure.
That’s hard to keep up with. Trying to keep up with that could result in entering into a dangerous spiral of comparison and self-pity. Don’t go there. It’s not pretty.
That being said, I have found myself, once again, taking on a new feat along side the one and only Tracy Lorensen.
About a month ago Tracy found out that she had a candida** overgrowth problem that was wrecking havoc and causing all sorts of ruckus on her insides. In order to get rid of the all consuming candida (which is just a fancy word for yeast) inside of her, Tracy needed to completely change her diet, cutting out all forms of sugar (natural or added), dairy and simple carbohydrates (bread, pasta, rice, oats, etc). It needed to be a complete overhaul. Right at the onset of the holidays.
My empathy, unsolicitedly, won and I decided that I would do it with her. As a support.
And that’s where I want to end this blog.
Because that’s where I look good.
What a good friend you are Samara. Yay you! The End.
Turns out…this was much harder than I was expecting.
Thank you Jesus for Caleb Lorensen who has been like a live in candida killing chef. Preparing us all sorts of sugar free, dairy free, gluten free dinners. If it wasn’t for him I would starve.
The first week on my new diet I was lost. I had no idea what to eat. I never realized how much of my diet was composed of carbs and sugars.
Carbs and sugars. Carbs and sugars. Carbs and sugars.
If you ask me what my favorite foods are, the only honest answer I can give is: carbs and sugars.
I quickly realized that most of my food choices were based off of convenience and that I regularly gave into sugary cravings.
I was addicted to sugar. No doubt about it.
The sugar cravings came hard and then my body punished me for not giving in by sending me a massive headache that lasted days on end. The lack of sugar made me grumpy and emotional.
Early on, Tracy was going through her first stages of candida die off*** and being the Superhuman Mixture of a person that she is, keeping a positive attitude and making comments like:
“I’m just enjoying the smells. I can’t eat it, but I can smell it,” and “At this point I don’t even want to eat sugar,”
while I was writhing in my bedroom over a snickers bar that I couldn’t indulge in or curling up in the fetal position lamenting over the woes of my life.
I was an awesome support system.
You may be asking yourselves, “why keep up this crazy diet if you’re not sick and you’re not doing a good job at supporting Tracy?”
That is a good questions and there are a couple good answers for it.
- I am incredibly stubborn. I am proving to someone (probably my inner critic) that I can indeed do this.
- It turns out, I had a pretty horrible diet before this. I never realized it. I mean, I eat a ton of vegetables and my meals are
allmostly good for me and nutritious…but between those meals, I would eat a ton of crap. It was mindless snacking. My food decisions were impulsive and often driven by my emotional state. Coming to that realization was hard, but has been a driving factor keeping me going. I want to rid myself of this unhealthy addiction to bread and sugar and stop looking to foods for comfort or joy when I should be looking to Jesus.
- Finally, it turns out, I probably have a bit of candida overgrowth myself and actually feel a lot better (now that my sugar withdrawal is done) not eating the carbs. My digestive system has needed the break and I find that when I mess up and eat something I shouldn’t, I end up with stomach issues.
So, I’m keeping it up. Not with the strength and vigor of the Superhuman best friend that I live with, but with my dramatic, whiny personality that is too stubborn to give in.
If Tracy Lorensen can do it, I can too! (pray for me.)
**Candida is not to be mistaken with chlamydia like I was calling it the entire first week after getting this news…
***Die off is when the candida in your body has been starved to death so it emits all these toxins in a last ditch effort to destroy you and you feel miserably ill until the toxins are gone. Fun stuff.